GOD’S WORD® Translation 2Corth 4:8
In every way we’re troubled, but we aren’t crushed by our troubles. We’re frustrated, but we don’t give up.
Phililp 3:12 It’s not that I’ve already reached the goal or have already completed the course. But I run to win that which Jesus Christ has already won for me.
Weymouth New Testament 1 Peter 1:7
The sorrow comes in order that the testing of your faith–being more precious than that of gold, which perishes and yet is proved by fire–may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the re-appearing of Jesus Christ.
I really don’t remember when I made up in my mind to leave California I just knew I needed something to change. After the fights breakups and break downs I had found myself on ever bodies the coach. I had at this point lost all hope i was in a state of confusion trying to figure out what i was going to do and how in the world i got to where i was. I needed to get still and quite it wasnt very easy trying to explain where i was coming from but i only found myself lost in translation, it seem as though i was speaking a foreign language. So this left me even more frustrated yet the dreams kept coming and the feeling/ decrement kept getting stronger. I still didnt know what to do i fall back into my shall more like a cave state of mind to collect all that was going on and all that had happen, i focused more on running surpriseling it became my guilty pleasure. Little by Little revalation here and there yet the dreams kept coming I was in a world wind of spiritual take over!
The evening that i recived my confirmation God wanted to lay it on me thick i was invited to go out and relive myself of all the stress. I caught up with a few friends had a few drinks ( yes i drank socialy like you :) ) to find myself x marks the spot. I wasnt expecting nothing wasnt looking for nothing and for sure didnt want to entertain NO! possibility of a realationship. I was OVER IT ALL! Towards the end of the night it almost seems like the atomosphere was still though it was very nosey but there was something as it is put in the air yet it was quite but not. I was listing to a converstation when it Destiny hit me. It was foreign to me this kind the supernatural take over, God speaking to us how we comperhend, so for me it came natural, yet i was aware of his presents. The night went about i studied the room the people while i was being mused by my encounter i was drawn but not yet convenince it was God, i needed more so i introduce myself in hopes for an explanation. Faith was inviting but believeing would take more for me to be convince. This had to be more than a feeling after all I had been through i wasn’t up to expericance anything else. I needed a miracle a wonder working power to take me to my NEXT.
Relientlessly i started seeking answers spending my time with God, but i still wasnt sure if I was meant to leave Califorinia until one evening a service at Noel Jones City of Refuge, his sermon ” Leave and dont look back”, set a blaze in my spirit that inkighted my spirit the full extent to GO! and when GOD says Go you GO! So i left after many conversation with myself a broken heart dead end friendships broken bridges with no way of ever coming back, headed towards my Destiny.
Now at that time i was still a babe in Christ with no real training and to get to where God was calling me from, form that divine meeting i needed HELP in a despert way. Now looking back i am still putting the pieces as they come in place i was a total mess. I had a stench that I couldn’t recognize because I thought i was good honey I thought I was ready for it all. Little did I know I had no clue to what God was getting ready to do, LOVE the hell out of me. God asked me “what makes you so sure your ready for what you have asked but yet what i brought into divine conncection says that you are even quilifed?that’s a Loaded GUN, God took it there didn’t he I mean really, I knew I couldn’t answer that question expeacilly with all my unheal wounds and scars not including the stitch that I was walking aroung like i didn’t sank! I was foolishly thinking that what could be giving to me wouldn’t cost me, yet it did and I haven’t look back. The more God pressed me the more the intents measure of faith I grew in because I knew that it was bigger than me the promise the purpose awaited me.
2 Corinthians 12:7-10… “And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong”
There where times when I wanted out I mean completely out because what i was going through all hell, trails, hurts, lost sacifiy, pain, fastings, sleepless night, interceedings, dieing to myself praying endlessly to avail nothing I mean this life as a believer started to give me the blues endless fighting ( spiritauly ) for what I thought at the time would never let up. Then revelation came my life finally made a turn! everyhting started making senece including me the robbit hole I went down into finally ended but I needed away out! (Ps 121. I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.) Joseph was thrown into the pit and while he look “UP” he knew as I knew that my help comes from the LORD. Being called up called by name setting my affections upon high you have to have endurance you have to learn the word be taught the wax on wax off addition of GOD. Our Lord Jesus knows so after reading seeking his face I knew ( 1 Peter 4:12-13
12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.
I was being transformed into his likeness and imagine, I was being created for his glory along as the woman he said I am.
Destiny seem a far off for me but I ate it, I drank it, I nurshied the vision that sat before me in California until I wasnt who I was any more. My sisters had to get me grounded for I had no balance between living an serving. But I was getting close to the promise I needed to feed but without realtion to the world you have no testimony no witness that the Lord is alive. I owed the Lord my life it was so messed up and to think that I could bear his promises do great and mighty works in his name caused me to submerge in a realm of endless light of his GLORY. But yeah I needed balance always a work in progress.
The Vision was written Habkkuk 1 I will stand on my guard post And station myself on the rampart; And I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, And how I may reply when I am reproved. 2Then the LORD answered me and said, “Record the vision And inscribe it on tablets, That the one who reads it may run. 3“For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay.…
I wanted nothing to do with anything or anyone that wasn’t for my vision. This was a very hard lesson I couldn’t tell no one about dream/vision. I was Joseph all over again young and immature wet behind the ears. I young Daniel trying to see my was through black valley’s of shadows of death from where I stood in spite of hope. I began running again the ironyer of it became my teacher to run my crouse, I had focuse hone in on the skill of listening. This gift needed sharping then it hit me when God called me by name, more then once a prophet. Now now Lord this is not funny but it was true just as he spoke to ( Jeremiah 8“Do not be afraid of them, For I am with you to deliver you,” declares the LORD. 9Then the LORD stretched out His hand and touched my mouth, and the LORD said to me, “Behold, I have put My words in your mouth. 10“See, I have appointed you this day over the nations and over the kingdoms, To pluck up and to break down, To destroy and to overthrow, To build and to plant.”…
Talk about a word from my own mouth while praying and worship! I had to process all of what the Lord was doing in me and telling me. I have never been much of a writer nor a word smith to record all that I journey because I have dsylaxia. Once a upon time I was ashamed it took years to get over but I have finally over came. People assume one way about you then actually getting to know you, it’s nothing like it seems I just process a little differently if not better. So I thank God for my inadequacy, it’s been more of blessing then a curse.
So I made it across the Jordan now it’s time to seize and possess the land. For I am more then conquer, I shall recover it all!
Never give up on your dreams the visions that God has giving up, it worth the fight worth the scairfy. I gave up everything for the vision the prophecy for the dream that God seeded in my heart. Never stop believing even if you give up on yourself know this the lord wont give up on you. He will draw you with his unfailing LOVE to keep you as his own. I would have never gotten this far if hadn’t been for the Lord thy God who was on my side. I owe him me.
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